When I have stuff to do, I will find every possible thing to avoid doing it.
When I have stuff to do, I have plenty of other things that catches my attention.
When I have stuff to do, I read (for pleasure) a lot more than usual.
When I don't have anything to do, I crave for things to do.
When I don't have anything to do, time moves in slow-motion.
When I don't have anything to do, nothing interests me.
Why is this the case?
People have opinions. People have the right to have those opinions. But sometimes I just don't like people's opinions and I feel the need to make them see my way of thinking. But then I realize that does not really accept the fact that people have a right to their opinion and I must keep my thoughts to myself and just let it be.
Plans never work for me. Plans with friends tend to flop. Plans to work tend to flop. Plans. Plans. Plans. It's just something I cannot stick with. If I plan out my day, it will be all messed up and something with obstruct the flow of things and I won't get everything done... no matter if the plan consisted of 2 things. I guess I'm a spontaneous, works-under-pressure kinda person.
Time flies when you have things to do and you haven't started. Time flies when you're enjoying yourself. Time flies when you are in a really good conversation.
Have you ever had the dilemma of wanting to leave a place but you can't because it makes you smile (yet sad)? Starbucks attracts a lot of good looking folks to their tasty (but rather expensive) drinks. They also attract couples. Therefore, the dilemma here is that you get to see a whole lot of beautiful eyes, hair, face, style, and bums, but you also get to feel "forever alone". First world dilemmas.
No, I don't want a boyfriend. Yes, it would be nice. But I am happy with what I got and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I also realized that I have a few (let's be honest, a lot) of expectations which are somewhat unrealistic. They are not impossible, but to find them in one person is kind of a lot to ask for. I see couples around me, my friends in relationships and I feel like what most of them have is not something I would want. I realize I cannot say what I would do in a relationship since I have never been in one, but I do hope I at least don't do the things I don't like other people doing.
Hangover - the not-so-nice feelings you get after doing these things or experiencing the aftermaths of something.
I'm hungover. Hungover from all the handsome young fellas I have seen for the past 4 months. Hungover from all the work I have done and all the stress I still have. Hungover from everything that happened last month and the consequences it had. Hungover from the time I have wasted. Hungover from all the expectations I set myself. Hungover from annoying people. I'm hungover from life.
Rumbles. Jumbles. And a bunch of nonsense. Enjoy!
"But I think I'd feel naked without your shirt"
I think its hereditary; The plan thing... I'm positive its in our DNA. Its uncanning how I feel about that specific thing and yes its quite frustrating to think about since you know we plan and it flops or someone else plans and we flop... That's because life happens and we don't have on blinders!!!!! Atleast that's what I tell myself.
ReplyDeleteAs for the handsome two legged creatures... One will come your way and believe it or not expectations shall not stop you. You will love and lose; you will make mistakes you solemnly promise yourself you wont when you watch other people but life is inevitable. Its also repetitive and we all experience the same in different forms. Mistakes are only but a way to refine ourselves and move with the changing times. Life (all aspects of it) without mistakes is not worth living and quite frankly is very boring.