Pessimism

Oh goodness, gracious me. I am such a pessimist. I cannot believe it... Or can I? I always had this image in my head that I was really optimistic about life, but come to think of it, that was just a fantasy. It was something I kept telling myself over and over again until it became a reality for me.

I complain a lot. A lot, a lot. If I ever met myself, I think I would stir clear of me so that I don't have to endure my complaining! How did I become like this? I can remember the days where I always had a smile on my face or just didn't care what the world thought and just did what I felt was right and what put a smile on my face. I never doubted things, I was open to new things, to meeting new people. Now? Now, I'd rather stay at home and watch TV or YouTube and complain that my life isn't going anywhere because "I'm so lazy" or any other excuse I can muster up. (I apologize for saying this very same line in basically all my posts up until now).

Again, oh goodness, gracious me. I need to turn my frown upside down now and immediately take a crash course on how to go from a pessimist to an optimist (any ideas on how to?). Optimistic people have such a great outlook on life and look at everything from the standpoint of what was good about a situation/event. They dwell on the good, not the bad. They know that life goes on and that things happen, and they accept it and just GO WITH THE FLOW.

It's time to just relax and just embrace life as it comes. But that does not mean that I just sit back and have everyone serve me everything I want in life on a platter. I just want to have a positive outlook on the life I have and live and stop wanting things that are either out of my reach or my control. Things happen when they happen. They NEVER happen when you really WANT it, but they happen when you NEED it or when the time is just about right.

"I wish I was from a broken home to explain the fact that I'm cold and alone. But my family is golden, so it's probably just my own fault."